chit chat (lyk always)

there's somethin wrong with me. i changed, i know it for sure. i'm not friendly anymore to a newfriend, a new boy-friend. i mean, boyfriend like.. friend, not a date.
i started to think, that, boys who wants to know me (except from LPU clan.. :D ) are jerk. they only want to reach me, get themselve closer to me, and finally, ask me to be his girlfriend. and if i refuse, they'll said that i'm a bad girl, i'm a mean, they'll start to show their sad face, and beg for my heart. or even worse, they'll mocking on me... /blur

so, i prevent those things by ignoring them at the first place /wahaha
yeah... i admit it, i'm alone again, but this is better than having friends that always mocking on you, stressed you up.

Chester said:

I'D RATHER BE ALL ALONE

hahaha... LP in my side..



now, i have this lil funny thing about 1 boy i know. he's my ex-boyfriend (un-officially broke up ) /wahaha again
at first, we met. i told him that i was so lonely that iPod has became a part of my life (yo.. iPod is on my pocket always). he seems understand that and i thought i've shared my pain with him. he feel poor on me.

second thing, he came to my house at night, seeing my house was so quite. his face become tired, n once again he feel poor for me. i thought, once again i thought, he'll be the one who always be there for me, someone who won;t make me feel lonely again.

but then...

now, its just like, 1 week, he didn't text me. well he did, but it just like, once a day. and it always be me who text him last.  now i never text someone first. i let my mobile phone in my bed a whole day, if it doesn't ring, i won't pick it up.

the conclusion is..:
1. he acts like he cares about me
2. he won't admit that he just acting
3. he's a jerk
4. its not my fault if i broke him un-officially
=))

now im living my happy lonely live /nobigdeal
with my Ninja Saga, some friends that still loyal to me (about 6-8 person, i got their number phone outside ma ass, i can memorize them!! /XD )
and of course my:
1. Zangetsu (nokia N-gage, ma ancient lovely mobile phone) /please
2. jaggy/ jaggerjack/ grimmjow jaggerjack/ ma iPod
3. ma un-named computer... /blush
4. all da shit ppl i can mockin on wid my loyal friends.. =))

thats all agaaainnn... fo dis shitty nite..

/bye

PS: there's an ant stuck inside my keyboard /sweat